Fuda #34

[idealism]

[This time around, all Tsuzuki recorded was his slurred voice.]

What do you mix -- get if you mix vodka, liquor and raspberry juice?

[A long pause. There''s a clink of the glass. Consider how full of suck the world has been lately, it's a great day for drinking.]

Tatsumi's gone. His things were gone when I checked. There's not a lot of people left now.

So it's time to drink to them.

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[neverplaysfair]

[ Joshua doesn't say anything. Instead he simply threads his fingers together and rests his head on his hands. He can give Tsuzuki some time to digest that. ]

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[idealism]

[And while Joshua waits, Tsuzuki is doing his damnest to pull himself together. His whole body is tense as he attempts to stop himself from sobbing in front of him. Hisoka had said something similar when Tsuzuki was in a very difficult time in his life - being reminded of it puts him right back in that alley, and the emotions are hard to contain. He wipes his eyes, sounding stuffed.]

Sorry. You're right.

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[neverplaysfair]

Cry if you need to.

[ He has time. ]

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[idealism]

No. I'mmok.

[But of course he's not. And soon tears start to fall. When he opens his mouth again, his voice is quiet and mumbling.]

...I know wha it feels like to have someone after you, when you don' like them that way. I don' wanna be a Muraki to 'Soka.

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[neverplaysfair]

[ ... oh. ]

You're attracted to him.

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[idealism]

[He cowers his eyes. If he hadn't been so drunk, he would have said he needs a drink.]

It was an acc'dent.

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[neverplaysfair]

Is that what this whole thing is about?

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[idealism]

[He shakes his head weakly. It's a big contributing factor, but what initially started the whole thing was that so many friends he had known had gone home. Hisoka simply added the last drop in the bucket when Tsuzuki felt down. Tsuzuki has no idea how to say that.]

'S a long story.

D'you think I shudd apologize to 'im?

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[neverplaysfair]

For what?

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[idealism]

For pushin'.

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[neverplaysfair]

Have you been pushing him?

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[idealism]

I din't think so.


...I dunno anymore. Isn' feelin somethin' close by him pushin'im in a way?

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[neverplaysfair]

In a way. But only Hisoka himself can tell you if that matters.

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[idealism]

He won'. He's too proud.

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[neverplaysfair]

Then he'll suffer for his pride. Unless you'd rather I find out for you, but I somehow doubt he'd appreciate that.

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[idealism]

Thanks, but I don' need him to have anodder reason to -to lose co'fidence in me.

[He takes another sip of his drink, and for the first time that night he begins to realize he's had enough.]

I guess ders nothin' I can do.

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[neverplaysfair]

[ He'd had enough the moment he got drunk enough to think inviting Joshua over was not going to end poorly for all his secrets. ]

Not if he won't tell you anything. It might seem strange to Hisoka who has never needed to ask, but if he has problems with you they won't get addressed unless he tells you. And if he does tell you, you need to respect them.