idealism | Fuda #35 [action/written]

Fuda #35 [action/written]

[It's a quiet, sunny day in Luceti. At least, until Tsuzuki is unceremoniously returned from his Mallynapping and tossed into the lake. Hacking and coughing, he swims to shore. He doesn't care who hears him, all he wants is the attention of the robots.

It's not working out as well as he'd like.]

COME BACK! You can't just keep him there!

[After a lot of railing against the sky ~~since the Malnosso is not listening~~, Tsuzuki slinks home to dry up. People who follow the journal system will notice a comment written a while later.]

[Written]
What day is it?

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It's my job. I've had some time to get used to that.

[And as long as they don't talk about what happened the first time he got enough of it, the better.]

You help me, I'll help you later when you need me to. Do we have a deal?

Edited (me being dumb before bed again.) 2012-07-19 03:58 (UTC)

No.

[ Sorry, Tsuzuki. He may be selfless and caring but he's also an impartial judge. ]

I refuse to believe that your partnership is so imbalanced that one of you is a living meat shield for the other.

[He's very close to losing his calm.]

It's not. He shields me too, in different ways.

[ He's more than welcome to. ]

In ways that you don't do the same?

Not in the same degree he does, no. He'd never allow me to.

[Of course it's tempting to be angry, but he knows he'll regret it. Instead he takes a different road.]

Who helps you when you're in trouble, Joshua?

[ Oh, he sees what you're trying to do here. Alright, Tsuzuki, he'll let you see where this road leads. ]

Here or home? What sort of trouble?

Both here and home, I guess. I remember how you reacted when me and Hisoka tried to.

Mmm, in that case... I help myself.

I figured as much. Don't you get lonely?

No. [ Just homesick.

Well, he does get lonely, but it's completely wrapped up in homesickness. ]

[Considering that Tsuuki gets ridiculously homesick at times, too, he's not exactly believing Joshua.]

I do. I get so lonely it physically hurts sometimes.

Hisoka saves me from that. Why shouldn't I want to help him?

Because then he'll be so lonely it physically hurts, with the added guilt of knowing it's because of him that the one he cares most about is still suffering.

[The words sting. His voice softens.]

I try not to bother him when I feel like that. I know it's not good for him to feel that.

[Time to change the subject, because this is getting uncomfortable fast.]

You know that if you're ever in trouble, we'd help you too, right? You don't have to only rely on yourself.