Fuda #42 [action/video]

[idealism]

[If anyone walks past house 25 today, they will notice that is looks dark and abandoned. On the front door, someone has nailed a piece of paper. It says:

Hisoka and I has moved to Community house 5, room 4 on the ground floor. Draco has gone home.

-Tsuzuki

[The room number is underlined twice.  He doesn't want anyone to come to the wrong part of the building by mistake. 

There are too many goodbyes. After a while the body simply doesn't have enough energy to grieve for all of them, no matter how much it wants to. Tsuzuki doesn't know how to deal with it just yet, but he does know that he needs to at least pretend things are fine.  That's why he takes his normal trip to the bakery and then to the temple during the rainy day.  Rei is nowhere to be found at the temple, which is a huge red flag to him.  She would have never left it without telling anyone.  He does his best to make the temple stay clean and welcoming while he waits for her to come back.

When he goes to his new home, he makes sure to bring some real green and some snacks for Hisoka, as a way to try to cheer him up.]

Sorry about the mess.  Do you want some help with the unpacking?

[Once he's hung his coat to dry, he opens his journal and presses the video function.]

I see we've gotten some more new people in town.  How are you all settling in?

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[winds_voice]

[Of course he does, Tsuzuki, it's part of his job, especially as your friend~ But Eley wouldn't push him if he decided against it either. Sure he could ask questions but if Tsuzuki would rather not answer them then that was his choice.

He wasn't quite expecting his next statement, and it made him wonder...]

I suppose they have... I will admit that I may not have noticed as much as I should have. I am only close to a few here and the rest I would only observe as I would my other subjects at home. There have been multiple messages posted concerning friends going home however, that I have not overlooked.

Have you lost a friend, Tsuzuki?

[idealism]

I have lost may friends.

[Saying it out loud makes him want to do something- preferably avoiding the subject. His loneliness is too much to look at logically right now. Instead he turns the tables on Eley.]

Do you ever want to stop observing? Start involving yourself?

[winds_voice]

[Woah, wait a minute. Eley wasn't expecting the sudden question and looks rather surprised that the attention was now back on him. Did he want to get more involved? Well... yes, in some regard.]

...I wish to know more about humans. Not just humans but all the different species that seem to reside here. If I were to get involved... I would experience things firsthand, yes?

[He pauses, considering it.]

But... this feels unnatural to me. I am wary of getting too close, becoming perhaps too human. It would depend on how exactly I would become more involved.

[idealism]

I'm not surprised it would feel unnatural. You haven't been mortal until just now.

But... there must be some good sides to being human too, right? It's not all scary?

[winds_voice]

You are right, it has not been all bad. I have found things to enjoy about being human. I did not feel much in the way of pleasure in the past... my life was already planned for me and I simply carried it out by instinct. I never realised how much I would enjoy learning, eating, creating, conversing with the people I had lived alongside for so long.

Perhaps... the risk of pain might be worth it in the end.

[idealism]

I think so. If you run the risk of pain, that means that there's a risk of something amazing happening, too, right?

[winds_voice]

Yes... I suppose you are right.

[He's not sure what would count as 'amazing' just yet but he suspects that's because he hasn't experienced it. Perhaps it would be worth attempting something.]

Where would you suggest I begin getting more involved?

[idealism]

[Tsuzuki is of course thinking of the possibility of falling in love. Without that, life would eventually feel hollow.]

Hmm, that's a tough one. You could always help me at the temple, if you want. Or we can go to the welcome center and ask them.

[winds_voice]

[Eley would disagree, as a Spirit, however he has become increasingly curious about the whole love thing. And perhaps if it stays on his mind it might start wearing away at him eventually...]

I would not mind working alongside you. Although... I am not entirely sure how much help I would be. I do not mind doing menial tasks if there is something you would rather avoid.

[He supposed working more with Tsuzuki might help him to decide how much he really trusted him. It might help when making important decisions.]

[idealism]

[Tsuzuki's wings flutter behind him, a small smile creeping onto his face. It's good to be able to talk to someone like Eley again. It's strange, but he always feels so much more relaxed once he's around Eley, as if he's known him forever.]

That's too kind of you. I think you'll be a great help.

[He straightens the feathers on his left wing. They become ruffled all too easily.]

You know, sometimes having someone around to talk to is more help than having them do chores.

[winds_voice]

[He considers this. It was part of his duty as a deity to listen to others. If that is all Tsuzuki really wanted then... well he was sure he could do that.

But mentioning being able to converse with someone in that way reminds Eley that they were on the way to discussing something else not so long ago.]

I will always be there to talk, Tsuzuki. However, you will need to open up to me for it to have any real benefit.

[idealism]

[He blinks.]

Open up?

[winds_voice]

[He gives a soft sigh at that.]

You mentioned losing your friends before the subject changed to my own involvement. If you truly wish to speak to me then speak. Finish what you started.

[idealism]

[His eyes grow darker, and if Eley pays attention he'll notice how Tsuzuki grows just a little more sober at the prospect. He tries to keep up a cheerful mask most of the time, to keep people from worrying. That is difficult when said person knows what is bothering him, because the cracks in his mask becomes obvious.]

Are you sure? I don't want to burden you.

[winds_voice]

[The Spirit notices of course, but he doesn't back down. If he was going to get more involved he might as well start here with someone he knew.]

It will not be a burden. You are a friend and I am here to listen to friends or followers or anyone who cares to show me respect. It is not healthy for one person to carry such a weight by themselves.

[idealism]

[His body language relaxes significantly, as if ELey said just the right thing. Tsuzuki looks down, suddenly shy. Normally it's he who presses others to open up, and he's not used to being on the other end of it.]

[It's very touching for him. He places his hand on the crook of Eley's elbow, trying to catch his eyes again.]

....Thank you, Eley.

[winds_voice]

[Eley's patient. While he is interested in what Tsuzuki has to say, he's used to waiting and letting the speaker think things through.

He's not quite expecting the touch on his arm though and... well now he feels a little shy as he meets those eyes. He might be blushing again but this isn't about him... he'll just try to ignore it.]

It is the least I can do...

[idealism]

[Despite himself, it makes him dare to be hopeful. Maybe he doesn't have to hide away from everyone. When he notices the faint blush, the small smile grows on his face. If anything, it convinces him that Eleytheria's desire to listen to him is genuine, and that kind of reassurance is exactly what he needs.]

I don't know where to start, Eley. So many have left.

[winds_voice]

It... must be difficult to see so many friends suddenly disappearing. Are you perhaps afraid of being alone?

[It would make sense. While being alone in some cases wasn't a bad thing, Eley was aware that humans were social creatures. They needed some degree of social contact for their own wellbeing. In a place where anyone could suddenly leave, that fear must be apparent surely.]

[idealism]

[He hasn't realized he's so obvious. A flicker of pain crosses his features, only to be replaced by a concerned hopelessness. He doesn't like being exposed. Not one bit.]

...

Maybe.

[He clears his throat.]

But that doesn't mean I'm alone. I have you, I have Hisoka, Rei... It just makes me sad when people I care about leave.

[winds_voice]

[Eley can see that. Even the word he chooses in answer is suspect; he's still not saying yes outright. Still, he doesn't persist. He doesn't really need to hear it after all.

The Spirit gives a nod.]

Of course, you are far from alone. Even so, you must always wonder just how long we will remain by your side. There is no way of knowing if and when any of us will be sent home. I admit that I would also feel rather... upset... should you or any other of my friends disappeared. Especially if it meant they would not remember me.

[idealism]

This place is cruel. It gives us friends and takes them away again. And the thought of them having their memory wiped... It destroys the only good thing about this place.

[Although he appreciates what Eley is doing for him, he nevertheless becomes defensive when he hears his opinions being spoken out loud.]

I'd be very sad if you went home soon, Eley.

[winds_voice]

I... hope that I would not leave just yet.

[He admits. He might not have said it before... he has a world to get back to after all, a duty to continue what he was made for and his own people to nurture as he was before he came here. But Luceti had opened his eyes to many new experiences and he had far more friends here than he did at home. To suddenly be taken from them and... remember nothing, was rather sobering to think about.]

There is still much I want to learn and experience, with others and with you, Tsuzuki. I am not ready to leave, and I am certainly not willing to forget.

[idealism]

[It's been some time since he's thought about the possibilities that are still left in town. He needs that kind of hope in his life, so he does the only natural thing: he tries to hold onto it.]

Let's try to both stay here, okay? If it's even possible.

[winds_voice]

[Eley wished he could agree to that with some conviction, but... he couldn't help but hesitate. He knew one day he would have to return home and Tsuzuki too. Could he really be willing enough to focus on staying here indefinitely?]

...one day I will have to return to Aether. Even if I have been told that my world is safe, I still cannot trust that that will always be the case. I am a part of that world and I must be present when I can.

However, I am not ready to return just yet. I will do whatever I can to remain here for as long as possible. As long as I have a purpose here then I will survive.