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Fuda #44 [action]
[It had been so long since had a real family, that when the event is over and the delusion lifts, he doesn't want to believe it's true. Still, as much as he tries he understood that the life he wanted is the dream, and the reality isn't anything like what he expected.]
He is glad to know Hisoka again, of course. His partner was as close to family as he could get. Tsuzuki knows he isn't as alone as he feels.]
[Tsuzuki needs some space to think. He misses Seto and Helios and their strange, lovable family. It isn't fair they had to give it up. He walks out of the house and goes through the city, but that's not enough. IN the end, he arrives at a familiar hill, at a familiar tree. He begins to climb on autopilot, not stopping until he's a couple of meters over the ground. Maybe things will make more sense if he can see the bigger picture from there.]
He is glad to know Hisoka again, of course. His partner was as close to family as he could get. Tsuzuki knows he isn't as alone as he feels.]
[Tsuzuki needs some space to think. He misses Seto and Helios and their strange, lovable family. It isn't fair they had to give it up. He walks out of the house and goes through the city, but that's not enough. IN the end, he arrives at a familiar hill, at a familiar tree. He begins to climb on autopilot, not stopping until he's a couple of meters over the ground. Maybe things will make more sense if he can see the bigger picture from there.]
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[They're such an ingrained part of his life that he can't believe he's not talked about them before.]
They bonded with me ages ago, and having a family reminds a lot of that feeling.
[But they aren't talking about shikigami right now. He smiles crookedly, looking to the spirit.]
DO you think it would get easier if you had someone to rely on? I mean, someone to show you the ropes.
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I have learned much by experiencing things alongside other people. You have already shown me many things that I had never encountered in the past. I suppose the best way to learn is to depend on someone who knows what they are doing.
[And... Eley knew a few people he could really depend on, Tsuzuki being one of them. Wasn't that partly why he had stayed with them for so long?]
Perhaps you can tell me more about these shikigami and your... bond with them.
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Sure. What do you want to know about them?
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[He pauses.]
And how did you come to know them... and grow so close to them?
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[As for the second half of his question, Tsuzuki doesn't really know how to answer that. It's been so long since they bonded. In the end, his answer is as simple as it is honest.]
...I believed in them. I opened my heart to them.
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[Eley seems rather contemplative about all of this. He knew well enough that Tsuzuki believed in him... and he could be categorised as a nature spirit himself, couldn't he?]
Does that not sound familiar to you?
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[It's something that makes Tsuzuki feel a little happy, but he tries not to be too obvious about it.]
There's just one tiny difference.
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He tilts his head at those words though.]
A difference?
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[Just remembering that feeling makes his heart feel lighter. Having his shikigami around always made him feel protected and loved, as if he was a part of a family. Eley reminds him far too much of them, and a small part of him hopes that the spirit understands that. He glances at him.]
Like it feels like a bond.
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Perhaps not in the past... and Eley was sure he would rarely say such a thing himself. But in this instance, it felt right.]
I believe in you, Tsuzuki. I have no hesitation in saying that.
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[The joy he feels at that moment is quite easily noticed on his face. It's been so many years since the last time he bonded with someone, and the thought of possibly building trust with Eleytheria just makes him very happy.]
You know, I've missed that ever since I got to Luceti. Being separated from them made me feel weak. Like if I tried to save someone, I wouldn't be strong enough.
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[Like something was missing. It was no wonder Tsuzuki felt that way about himself, though Eley was sure he could do far more than he realised.]
It is made even more difficult with the limits on our abilities here, but that does not mean that we should lack the power to save others. I do not often like to use my abilities for forceful means, but to protect someone or to defend myself, I may make an exception.
...it is true that I should not have become so involved with people, but in Luceti I have had no choice. There is little else my powers of the wind are good for here... why should I not use it to assist others?
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[He was one of the luckier ones, of course. When he came to Luceti he was so fortunate to have a partner that supported him and helped him adjust to the town. Many people didn't have that.]
I don't like to hurt people, either. [However, he doesn't continue that train of thought, since Eleytheria has continued to speak.]
...Would you assist me? If I promise your powers will only be used to protect those too weak to defend themselves?
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Just as long as he didn't break it later... but Eley was prepared to take that risk with him.
He gives a firm nod, looking Tsuzuki in the eye.]
In truth, I would assist you simply as a friend. But I sense that we could do much good in this world if we worked together. It has been too long since I have worked alongside humans to make a difference to their lives.
[The longer he stayed here, the more he felt he was losing that identity as a Spirit. Perhaps this would help him achieve that balance he was searching for.]
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[He sighs, as if a burden has been lifted off of his shoulders. In a way, it has. It's been tough to be without shikigami, to know that nothing he could do would actually help. To have some backup makes everything easier.]
I'm hungry. Let's go down to that pizza place and celebrate.