idealism | Fuda #45 [video]

Fuda #45 [video]

[Locked from Hisoka Kurosaki by 20%]

I have a request to make. I understand if you don't want to, but I figured I'd try anyway.

In a couple of days, a really good friend of mine celebrates his birthday. Now, he hasn't had a good year. I 'd throw him a party, but he made me promise not to. But he didn't make me promise this. So.

If you see him on the 18th, would you wish him a happy birthday?

[Tsuzuki runs his fingers through his hair, wondering how to proceed. He grabs a piece of paper and a pencil.]

His name is Hisoka and he's normally not very talkative. Uhm. Doesn't smile a lot? He looks like this. Sort of. Anyway, I think he'd really appreciate it.

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[Mai considers the scribbled drawing a moment, then shrugs a shoulder.]

Sure.

[A beat, then:]

Are you certain he would want all these birthday greetings though?

Thanks!

[Tsuzuki's smile doesn't falter when he hears the question, but one of his wings twitches.]

Yeah, pretty sure. He's still new to people... caring, I suppose. But besides that, he tends to appreciate small things like that.

Good. Last thing I need is someone complaining.

Oh, I get that.

Hey, I don't think I've talked with you before. I'm Tsuzuki.

That's probably because I just showed up a week ago.

[It's not sarcastic or meanly said but her tone is so flat and apathetic sounding it may as well be.]

Mai.

You're a new feather? Welcome to town, Mai!

[But the answer worries him just a tad, so he leans closer to the camera. His wings rise on his back as he does.]

Has everything worked out well? I hope you've found a place to stay, because the nights here can be awfully cold.

I'm in one of the community houses. It's alright, I've dealt with worse.

...what exactly does he like?

[Because birthdays mean giving presents to Eley no matter who we're talking about here. It's what you do, right?]

Tea and books and quiet.

[The answer is quickly delivered and bordering on sardonic. Tsuzuki shakes his head, trying to get rid of the snarkiness.]

He likes old things. Old historical tales. Sword-fighting. And he likes our cat.

Hmm... I see.

[That was quite a broad selection to look into, but Eley was sure he could find something that he might find appealing. At least by Eley's interpretation of what Tsuzuki told him.]

Then I will have to see what I can do. Regardless I will try to offer a greeting at least.

[Since the week of paradise, Hisoka's been a bit more withdrawn than usual. It was a bit of a violation to be magically abused as a gear in someone else's wish-fulfillment machine, but it was also a period where speech was unnecessary. It's been difficult to return to the world of boundaries and separate bodies.

He approaches Tsuzuki as he writes, holding out the cat with both arms, head tilting curiously. Was the cat fed yet today? He's not sure.]

[Unlike Hisoka, The week of paradise improved Tsuzuki's desire to be social. It had reminded him that at one point in his life, he had people that loved him, and it was enough to make him remember who he was before Luceti happened.

With a bit of a start, Tsuzuki pulls his journal to him, leaving the drawing exposed. His partner wasn't supposed to know of his plans, that would ruin them.]

Hey, 'Soka.

[It catches him off guard that Hisoka is carrying their cat, but the question is clear enough. They really need to work out a schedule between them.]

No, I fed him yesterday. Is he hungry?

[He shakes his head. He doesn't think so. It's hard to tell with cats. Instead, he climbs into the seat beside Tsuzuki, uncharacteristically eager for contact.

Remember that time they merged powers, Partner? That was good. Maybe that's a thing that can happen again.

...Except he's not at all telepathic, so he mostly just burrows closer, ignoring whatever ill-conceived art that might have happened. If Tsuzuki wants to play with crayons, it's probably not his business.]

[Hisoka has been so quiet since they reunited that Tsuzuki doesn't know what to make of it. It's enough to make him worry, sometimes, that his partner is hurt and simply can't tell him.]

I can feed him when we make lunch, so don't worry about it, okay?

[As Hisoka leans close, Tsuzuki automatically wraps his arm around his shoulder and hugs him. The fact that Hisoka is still there, after all the bad things that has happened, only proves to Tsuzuki how lucky he is. If Hisoka were to want to synch, it doesn't take much. Tsuzuki's soul has always open to him, even if he doesn't always intend for it to be.]

[He nods into the hug, closing his eyes and letting out a soft sigh. It's warm here, curled up close to Tsuzuki's heart. The contact soothes him tremendously.

Only then does he reach to the table for the the drawing, tapping it expectantly. Answers, please?]

[Hisoka is still the one closest to his heart, so the position is appropriate. It has the same relaxing effect on Tsuzuki, who doesn't know what to think about Hisoka's clinginess. On one hand it makes him glad that Hisoka feels safe enough with him to rely on him. Maybe it's his way of dealing with that whole week he didn't see him.

His gaze following Hisoka's hand, he feels a flash of embarrassment.]

It's supposed to be you. Drawing with crayons is harder than it looks. Want to try?

[He shakes his head no, because drawing with crayons is stupid. It would also require separating again, which he's simply not ready to do. Why would anyone want to? He nuzzles Tsuzuki's chest with his cheek once more in emphasis. Less talking and more this.]

[The crayons are mentioned because they're Tsuzuki's way of reaching out to him. People that refuse to talk sometimes respond better through body language or drawing, and he doesn't want Hisoka to feel like he's isolated.

His partner has a special talent for making him soft, and the cuddling is especially good at tugging at his heartstrings. Tsuzuki sighs softly, brushing his fingers through Hisoka's feathers. They don't need to talk to communicate, not when it really matters.]

....I missed you.

[More head-shaking. Tsuzuki shouldn't have been capable of missing him! He'd been so sure to make sure his partner was pampered, even beyond the veil of skewed priorities during that period. Why would Tsuzuki say something that wasn't true?]

[ Even when surrounded by perfect happiness, he still wanted Hisoka to be there. His partner was many things, but replaceable was not one of them. It was simply hard for him to think about that, especially when he suddenly had the opportunity to see his sister again.
He needed that time to remember how much love he was surrounded with back home, but although it swept him up in affection and made sure he felt loved, he needed someone to share that feeling with. Someone that wasn't family, but could be.]

[Tsuzuki smiles down at him, resting his hand on his back instead of his wing. Now that he's sane again, the thought of having a perfect life but not having Hisoka there, makes him want to cry.]

Of course I did. It's not the same without you.

[He frowns, resorting to charades to egt his point across. He gives Tsuzuki a pointed look and runs his fingers along the curve of his partner's cheek. Tears? Now? Unacceptable.]

[It's not hard to understand what Hisoka means. Tsuzuki smiles apologetically, giving his shoulder a pat. It's fortunate that he doesn't have to explain to his partner that they're not tears of sadness.]

I'm sorry.

[He looks down to avoid the scrutiny.]

I wish you could have met her, you know. I think you would have liked her.

Hee hee, it looks just like him.

[ BIRTHDAY YOU SAY. ]

It's the angry look that does it.

[Why yes, let him include you in all the plans.]

Are you going to help me out, Joshua?

Now that depends. Help you out with what?

Just... don't forget to say hello to him. Birthdays can be weird for us.

How so?

[Blank stare. Of all people, he thought Joshua would get it immediately.]

....How old do you think Hisoka is?

A bit older than he looks. [ But younger than Joshua. ] So?

So I wouldn't be surprised if he wanted to look his age.

That feeling will go away before too long. I don't see what the problem is, personally.

I think he'll see the good sides of it, eventually. But still, I understand why he feels the way he does.

What about you, Joshua? Aren't there any dates that make you pause?

The anniversary of my arrival, I suppose. But that's really about it.

[ And his "birthday", and Hanekoma's birthday, and the day Hanekoma went home, and the day Neku went home, and the day Shiki went home, and... ]

What about you?

[By now he should have learned not to be truthful, but he doesn't see the point in it. Joshua would be able to know, in either case.]

Too many to count.

I'd imagine it's no higher than 366...

So it's Kurosaki-san's birthday then?

Tsuzuki-san, what does he like to eat?

It is.

[He pauses, running his fingers through his hair as he thinks.]

Eat? Hmm. He's particular about what he eats. He doesn't like spicy or sweet things or the taste of blood. But he will eat traditional food. Maybe I should get him dumplings or something.

So would something like dango be too much?

...and how do you know if he likes the taste of blood or not?

Nah, I think dango might work. It will remind him of home.

[Although it's likely that Tsuzuki will eat them, once Hisoka will undoubtedly leave them for him to find.

Hisoka is kind that way. Generous. Not just with his food, but with his spirit, too. Tsuzuki can still sense the lingering traces of taste and emotions the last time Hisoka opened up his mind to him, but whether the distaste for blood is his own or his partner's, he can't tell.]

I don't know. I just remember.

What flavor, would you say? It's not a birthday thing, but...yes, I can do that at least.

[Birthday you say? Seto's all about those, whether they're for strangers or for friends, it makes no difference to him. They're all important and he's more than happy to show how grateful he is that these people were born.

And Seto's good at recognizing people just from drawings he's seen (no matter how bad they are) so finding Hisoka from this shouldn't be hard.]

I'll make sure to say happy birthday to him if I see him! [And then on a bit more curious and sad note-] Did something bad happen to him this year?

[Tsuzuki's voice carries a smile when he answers. Even though it's been a while since they believed they were family, Tsuzuki remembers how proud he was when Seto was his son. How proud he still feels when he notices Seto do something good for other people. If it was up to him, they would still be family.]

Thank you, Seto.

[There's a sigh. Hisoka has gone through more than a few things in the last year that was terrible. Where is he supposed to start?]

He lost his best friend this year. I don't think he ever recovered from that.

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[Video] Sorry this is late...

[Video] it's totally okay! <3

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[voice - filtered] IM SORRY THIS IS LATE I DIDNT SEE THIS UNTIL LIKE YESTERDAY

[voice - filtered] that's okay! <3