idealism | Fuda # 6

That's part of what being friends is all about, isn't it? Putting up with each other, enjoying time together, and helping each other out when you need it. [She offers a tired smile. At least there's one person Hisoka hangs out with who has a level head. Merlin knows Malfoy doesn't count.]

Yes, exactly that. [Worry makes him smile less. There's no polite way to ask what she and Harry and the redhead must have been up to, after all. All he figures is that it must've been emotionally exhausting.] Did you get enough sleep, Hermione?

[oh if only you people knew what she's used to. She gives him a sidelong glance at that and then shakes her head.] It's difficult to sleep when you're having nightmares all the time. [Even worse when they're triggered by real life events.] We've all been supporting each other recently, so it's nice to have help from people from your own world. Not that others aren't nice, as well. [But there are things you can't share with outsiders. Not yet.]

[If only! Their conversations could become very colorful that way.] ...I know. [She wouldn't know it, but he and Hisoka would sympathize very much with that, since their nights are often interrupted by nightmares.]

It's okay, I understand. There are some things that are easier to deal with if you don't have to explain it to stranger. The friends from your world probably knows how to deal with your nightmares better, since they know what causes them.

Exactly. Some things are just easier to deal with around people who already know about it. Talking about what's going on is a good thing, of course, but some things- [She looks down at the ground and runs her hand through the grass.] -are too much to talk about.

[Tsuzuki notices how she avoids his eyes and becomes introverted. He's seen the same thing in Hisoka sometimes.] I know. And if you finally muster the courage to tell strangers, there's a chance they don't believe you. Which just makes everything worse. [With a remorseful smile, he continues, idly checking the grass on his side.] Having friends that knows how difficult it can be are worth their weight in gold.

So how often do you have nightmares, Hermione?

[She doesn't really do introverted as a whole. She just avoids subjects. Rarely, but it happens. At this, though, she looks up.] Right. Exactly. It's just easier to deal with around people who already know.

[And then she gives him a curious look, wondering why he's asking.] Not often. Harry's usually the one who has them, but I wouldn't wish them on anyone. [But when you're forced to live through one and remember really horrible times in your life, well... the tables tend to turn on their heads.]

But if you ever want to talk to a stranger, I'd be glad to.

[It takes a while for Tsuzuki's mind to connect Harry's name with his face. Glasses, at the meeting. Right. The boy that Hisoka calls "Potter!" who is Draco's boyfriend. He remembers him now.] Me neither. Those dreams can get really twisted, depending on your mind. [He gives her a subtly scrutinizing look.] What did you dream of, Hermione?

[She glances up to examine him critically for a moment before smiling.] Thank you. [There's just a little too much stuff that reaches into the "too personal" category right now.] If you need help with anything, extra research or anything, just ask me.

[If Hermione knew how much Draco was talking...] I suppose so... [She looks thoughtful, and then studies the house close by.] Mostly memories of things that have happened. Not always good, but not always bad, either. [She's not used to having people talk to her who don't know everything that's happened in her life. Harry and Ron are pretty much her only friends, especially after what happened last year with Ron and Lavender.]

[Hermione's critical look earns her an amused one in return. He's so used to Hisoka's glares that hers are mild in comparition.] Anytime. [Considering that it's the first time they've talked outside of class, Tsuzuki's surprised and relieved she was polite about the refusal. It means he can try again later, if they become friends.] That is really kind of you. I have a few questions, actually, about your world. But if you're tired, it can wait.

[She might find out before she realizes it.] Well, considering that we're not home, those memories probably hurt a little. The good ones more than the bad. [Ron and Lavender in canon, or in Luceti? Because if the latter, I missed it.]

[Oh this is nothing compared to her glares of doom. But those have been reserved for Hisoka lately. Tsuzuki might remember the DA meeting. THAT was a Hermione glare. Besides, she kind of likes him. He's so much better than Hisoka.] Oh no, I'm always happy to answer questions. [It's one of the only things that reminds her of home tbh. Questions are comforting for her.]

Sometimes... you remember things that would hurt even if you were home... Some things can't be changed no matter where you are. [Canon! XD If Lavender ever appeared in Luceti, Hermione would throw a Malfoy-fit XD]

[Oh, thooose. Tsuzuki'd hate to be the recipient of those. And he'd still like Hisoka to get along better with the nice girl with the big hair.]

[It's a good thing he has a lot of them, then. She'll be irritated by him in no time!] I was thinking about earlier, and something's been on my mind. Why do you use wands and not just commands?

You're right. Everyone remembers those things, sometimes, even if we try to pretend things are all right. The important thing is not to get caught in loops of thinking about it. [Oh phew! XD I was worried I had really not paid attention, for a sec. Seeing Lav-Lav here would heighten the drama]

[Nasty buggers, aren't they? Hermione just wants Hisoka to stop being a prick... oh wait :Ta]

A wand is made of magical components like dragon heartstring or phoenix feather or something of that nature and special kinds of wood. It acts as a focus for our natural magic. As a very young child we can use magic because we can't control it. Once we reach the age of eleven, we're enrolled in a magic school and given a wand to learn how to control the magic and harness it the way we need to use it. Eventually, it's possible to use wandless magic, where the focus of the wand isn't needed, but it's very advanced magic and only very powerful wizards can harness that.

[She nods.] Exactly. And we have our new friends here. At the very least we have each other to help us. [No worries! XD That would make the UST between Ron and Hermione explode in a shower of tears, blood, and canaries.]

[I'm just glad Hisoka's not incredibly attached to Hogwarts: a History, because getting them to share would end in violence.]

So... I'm not sure what the difference is between the children's magic and the wandless one. Is the wandless one more reliable than what children can do? And what's a unicorn?

That's a good way to look at it. [XD oh man, the canaries.]

[ahaha or anything else Wizarding World related or Hermione might call superiority and yeah there'd be bloodshed.]

The child's magic is simple like very very light levitation or the ability to bounce when dropped from a high balcony or changing hair colors, growing hair out, that sort of thing. It's very uncontrolled. The child has no control over what happens. It just does. Sometimes they don't even know they've done it. Wandless magic is deliberate, controlled, and much, much more powerful.

You've never seen a unicorn?

[The canaries were priceless XD]

[Actually, I would love to see Hisoka and Hermione talk about the Wizarding World. :3]

Oh, so it's like accidentally surviving something dangerous.

No... I've seen one kind of unicorn, but we don't call them that. Are unicorns common, or do they only show up at the birth of a sage?

[That would be interesting to say the least XD]

Dangerous or mortifying and embarrassing.

What do you call them? And no, there aren't any "sages" back home. We're all witches and wizards or Muggles. Unicorns are fairly common, but they live out of sight of most people and only like to be approached by women. They're skittish and extremely valuable.

[As long as neither have weapons or wands at hand.~]

Sounds like you know this too well. How did you find out you had magical abilities?

Well, we call them kirin. They have a very strong sense of justice, and when they walk they do not disturb the grass on the ground. They're usually very peaceful, but not timid.

What did you mean, 'valuable'?

[Which will be never XD]

Well, being able to find exactly what I wanted when I wanted it, especially in books. I'd always turn to the right page when it really came down to a test. Mine wasn't ever really life-threatening, but it was important to me. [That whole fear of being wrong thing. Yeah.]

Oh I see. If only ours worked that way. Their horns and tails are very powerful and can be used in spells or wandmaking, and their blood is said to keep someone alive even if they're an inch from death, but a terrible price comes with it. Killing such a pure animal to drink its blood means you'll be cursed. Your life will be cursed from then on. It's not really worth it. [Unless your name is Voldemort.]

[Tsuzuki can dream, can't he? XD]

So the magic responded to what was in your heart? Or maybe I should say, what was important to you. There's a difference between you two. ...I think I know what I'd wish for, if I had gotten magical abilities when I was young.

....Cursed how?

[...Probably.]

Yes, but that was before I knew about witches and wizards and all manner of things and the before the Second wizarding war. And besides that, getting good marks in school will help me help others in the long run, especially underprivileged ones.

[She shrugs.] We're not certain for sure. I've heard you'll live a half-life. It's like you're not really alive or dead, you're in between, and probably a lot less human for slaying something so pure. [another half-shrug.] The only person I know who's done it is now dead and the one who was possessing half his head is currently the one we're hiding from back home. So, unfortunately, I can't ask anyone, either.

Did your mother and father know about it, so they could teach you how to control it better? I didn't even know there were wizarding wars. Who won?

That... I'm pretty sure that's accurate. It sounds [heartbreakingly familiar] like what some people go through in Japan. Although I have no idea how people can possess only half a head...

No. They're Muggles and the Wizarding World is kept a complete secret from Muggles unless they have close Wizard relatives. I'm the only witch in my entire family, so they didn't understand it any more than I did.

And that depends on which war you're talking about. The first one we won. Bit of an accident, really. The second one was still going on when I arrived here. It wasn't looking too good.

I don't understand it, either. Voldemort was only in a spirit form. He had no body at the time and barely enough strength to do anything. He could only survive by unicorn's blood and riding along in another's body. So it wasn't really true possession. Quirrel could act and think for himself, though he obeyed Voldemort's commands.

Oh, I see. How did you prevent the other kids from stoning you? I mean, you were different, and you had to go to school...I hope your parents were supportive.

Sorry to hear that. What did you do to win the first one?

That sounds like a very complicated spell or curse. It sounds like what could happen if a half-god was killed back in Japan. Sometimes they could possess their murderers to get revenge.

Voldemort? That's such a strange name.

Edited 2010-08-25 01:04 (UTC)

They didn't really notice. It's not like it was very obnoxious or anything. My parents were very supportive. They love being part of the Wizarding world, even if only through me.

I was nearly two years old. Voldemort tried to kill Harry and it backfired. Nearly killed him instead. No one knows why, but he lost all his powers.

I don't know, actually, and it's one thing I don't care to know more about. Quirrel wasn't in his right mind by the time I knew him.

He chose it in school apparently.

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