idealism | Fuda # 12 [Action/video]

[Her brow furrows deeply as she struggles to focus on the story and not the wispy ethereal sounds she's hearing. It feels like once she's decided to shut out the visual hallucinations, the audible ones grow more intense, more cloying. Some summoned, others shunned. Some were so loud they felt like untamed thoughts, might have been her own -- but no. Tsuzuki. Focus on Tsuzuki. Except it's hard to keep focused on him when he stops like that.]

...Did something happen..? [Her eyes fluttered open to check in on her partner, but her concern was quickly dwarfed by a solid shriek. When did Tsuzuki have time to pass her over to Sargatanas' claws? Where exactly had they been leading all this time?! Stupid. She'd been stupid. She frantically claws and struggles against Tsuzuki's grip, seeing his hands as clawed paws and imagining that he'd already torn and shredded her skirt.] WHERE IS TSUZUKI??? WHAT DID YOU DO WITH HIM?!

[The reason he stopped was because the adrenaline had left his body. Suddenly carrying Hisoka became very tiring.]

[When Hisoka screams, Tsuzuki turns sharply. He'd rather be face to face with their assailant. Except he doesn't see anyone. The flailing makes him hold on tighter to Hisoka's legs, scared that she'd hurt herself.] I didn't do anything! Calm down!

[But the sudden turn and tighter grip only made her kick harder and scratch desperately at Tsuzuki's back.] I'M NOT GOING WITH YOU UNTIL YOU STOP LYING!! TELL ME WHERE TSUZUKI IS!

[Tsuzuki staggers. Having Hisoka scratching at his wings is really unpleasant. He sets her down, although he doesn't let go. In this mist he knows that's a bad idea, and he can survive some kicks.] Stop! Stop! If you stop I'll take you to where he is!

[With both feet back on the ground, her panic settled somewhat.] ...If I get the slightest inkling that we're headed to Hell, deal's off. Understand? [It was hard to look imposing in a frilly dress with lacy shoes, but she's trying her damndest.]

[Tsuzuki gasps loudly and covers his mouth with his paw.] To Hell? But I don't want you to go to hell! [He looks sorrowfully at Hisoka, who reminds him of a kitten that just realized it could puff out its fur. They were both not very imposing, but had very sharp claws.]

You never told me that Sargatanas wanted to steal you away.

Either make sense or stop talking. [He snarls, walking as far as he can manage while he's still being held like that.]

[This illusion is close to one of Tsuzuki's nightmares. He tries to keep his chin up.] We have to go past Luka's body and into the rose garden. Tsuzuki will be there. [He points towards their house, without knowing so.]

[OOC: use when I come back. >>;]

[That would be fine and well, if the house wasn't on fire at the moment.] You know I can survive that, right? [He's not entirely sure, but now isn't really the time to back down.]

Survive? [Tsuzuki gives him a genuinely puzzled look.] What do you see, Hisoka?

I see the fire you set. Really, it's not like you to be so melodramatic about your killing.

[That hurts him. He remembers being blamed for something like that a long time ago. Except it's too blurry to remember and he prefers to keep it that way. Tsuzuki tugs on Hisoka's skirt to get her attention.] Hisoka, there's no fire. I would never do something like that on purpose.

[Also I am sorry for this post and want to offer Tsuzuki a cookie instead. =X]

Shut up, Demon. [Oh, he's got her attention, but that still doesn't mean she's seeing anything clearly.]

[That's as effective as Hisoka would have slapped him in the face. Tsuzuki looks away so he can blink away tears, nodding weakly.]

[Nevertheless, he leads Hisoka the small distance to the house. He couldn't leave her out in the mist.]

[She still dug her heels into the ground in quiet resistance, but she followed eventually, flinching openly when they stepped back over the hearth leading back indoors.]

[He sniffles sadly as he helps Hisoka inside, but he's still mostly silent. The change in mood makes Tsuzuki feel a little safer, though that only makes him want to cry more.]

[OOC: Shakespeare for a while. My birthday's the 20th and I always get like this around then. XD "OH SHIT I'M GONNA BE HOW OLD?? /flips out, hiatuses" ...Last year I spent my hiatus tagging dressingrooms for a week. >>;]

[...Things in here are decidedly not on fire. Slowly, he opens his eyes, unsure which reality was actually happening.] ...Tsu..zuki..?

[ooc: but I hope that everything will turn out well. I wish I had known it was your birthday earlier, though. I'll be sure to look for soem dressing rooms if I miss you too much, then. <<;]

[There are no roses here, either. Tsuzuki thinks one wall is bleeding, but it's still better than outside. He takes a shaky breath and returns to Hisoka's side. It wasn't his partner's fault that he had hallucinations, after all.]

[OOC: community. xD And ACK NO DON'T DO THAT if I hang around DRs this year too it means I'm STILL not doing what I should be. xD /WILL GRADUATE SOMEDAY.]

[Tsuzuki feels so sad now... But even his empathy is suspect right now. He stares up at Tsuzuki, the corners of his mouth trembling dangerously.] ....It's you. Right?

[ooc: but if you hang around dressing rooms it means you haven't satisfied your RP fix. YAY GRADUATING. Now you'll be an adult!]

[He takes a step back, closing the door behind them. He doesn't want some of the mist to seep in. Tsuzuki also don't want Hisoka to realize that he's hurting] Yes. It's me.

Are you yourself again?

[OOC: Weeeeelll it's already too late in the semester to graduate before the Spring even if I finish another draft and my adviser approves it before the end of November. (which she won't because I've been trying to make this thing happen since January of last year and it's part of my lack of drive ;_; ) BUT I'm not planning on giving up on the MA either, so. That's where that is. AND THEN WE HIATUS. Possibly tomorrow. I need to nab Ty and possibly check in with Sol because baby!Hisoka might ping Harry too. XD]

[There's still a threatening tremor in his voice, through he's trying to swallow it away.] I don't know. I don't know if this is real.

[ooc: Sounds complicated, still, I know you can do it! Don't give up on the MA. Your advisor doesn't sound entirely nice, but I'm sure she means well. I can really relate to having no drive, so I really do hope that you'll succeed before it gets too exhausting. If they'll both be pinged by wee!Hisoka, I should probably grab them too. That way we can plot some shenanigans for when you come home.]

I think I'm me. [Tsuzuki wipes his cheeks just in case, then turns to Hisoka with a hopeful smile.] Ask me something only I would know. Maybe that'll work.

[He shakes his head] Too easy if we're both just hearing things. ...I hate this.

[Normally he'd ask Hisoka to touch him and feel that he's still Tsuzuki, but since he's still hurt he doesn't want to push that at his partner.] I want to take a nap. I'm tired.

At least we managed to get home. You won't go out into the mist again, right? At least tell me first.

Yeah.. Go ahead. I'm staying down here. [He makes a mechanical motion toward the couch, fully intending to huddle up into himself and lie awake for the next several days.]

[Action] AWWW YAY I LOVE LOVE. /bakes more

[Action] awwww more cookies /makes you a valentine

[Action] AAWWWW LOVE! <3

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[Action] <33 Aahha I totally just accidentally download the doujin those puppy icons come from. XD

[Action] <33 uh oh! What did you think?

[Action] <33 I think it's a Russian(?) translation that I can't read! But is adorable!

[Action] <33 do you want it in English?

[Action] <33 Maybe in a month or so? I'm hiatusing soon and was hunting around for proper scans to

Re: [Action] <33 Sure! Will you reminbd me when you come back? Will miss you, btw!

[Action] <33 I'll come back with a tiny!Hisoka to make up for it?

Re: [Action] <33 aw, that is awesome and I want to play with him nooow.

[Action] <33 ehehe weeeelll I need to put RP in a box for a little while first. xD

[Action] <33 I understand. I hope your break gives you a lot of energy and inspiration!

[Action] <33 It's fine! I'm just ignoring offline more than I really ought to be. >>;;;

[Action] <33 Ah, I understand. I just hope you'll come back!

[Action] <33 Most definitely! Two weeks ideally, a month at most. I just need to buckle down and

Re: [Action] <33 Aah, why didn't you say so? Happy early birthday!

[Action] <33 BECAUSE then I would have to admit how old I am. XD That doesn't always work in the RP

[Action] <33 pfff haha, I promise I won't tell anyone.

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[Action] <33 Aww you're so cute! ;_; And so good to me too! ilu Linn!!

[Action] <33 love you, too!

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